What happens when you feel that all is failing? You created a support system, have the ears of your friends, exercise regularly, and meditate or pray. You still find yourself stressed out, pacing at night, not sleeping, not eating well, and getting angrier and angrier. Everyday you keep relieving that nightmare. You see little or no hope, feel all is lost, and feel the only option is to open Pandora’s Box. STOP!!! It is time for professional help.
What you must understand, in most cases, your situation will not be resolved in a timely matter. Most are complicated, entrenched in a system of protectionism, and abuse of power and position. If you aren’t physically and mentally prepare for a long battle, you will lose much more than your case. School districts leadership play that mental warfare card, while sipping on a cup of power, they will sit and watch you fall apart. They have lawyers hired by the district, paid for by taxpayers, to protect their bad deviate behavior. This is all about the leadership survival; not yours.
Counseling will give you the tools for survival and dealing with the mental aspect of our situation. It is about empowering yourself and looking your abusers in the eyes. In a lot of school district contracts, there is provision for counseling talk to your union. No matter what, find some type of counseling; it is about you. If not, then you might open that Pandora’s Box.
When this started for me, I went home and got rid of fifty percent of my teaching material, books, lessons, etc. Within a month, I slept very little, saw no hope, and felt there was one option left. I open Pandora’s Box. What is in that box will be different for each person. My option was to go out and buy a gun and blow my brains in front of the school district to bring attention to my situation. I found myself trying to convince myself it was the last and only option left for me. This conversation with myself scared me.
Would I of done it? No. What I learned about myself in counseling that I have very strong believes and an inner strength that would have kept me from doing it. It was my firewall from the Box. It took several attempts at counseling before I responded and gain control of my mind, heart, and soul. Please get help, if needed. Keep trying to get help if counseling doesn’t help the first time around. It is all about you; not the bully or abuser.
Once you open that Pandora’s Box and choose to do harm to yourself; they win. That is their plan to sit and wait until you walk away or you are six feet under. They don’t care about you or your family only protecting their reputations and jobs. In few minutes, hours, days, weeks, months or years you will be forgotten. The school district bullies continue their rein of terror and deviate behavior.
You and many others are the only ones standing in their way. Let us have a conversation and speak with one powerful voice.